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Just this past year I went to my first furry convention. You’re probably wondering what a furry convention is; it’s a convention for people who like animals with human qualities- like a weekend long party for characters such as Mickey Mouse and Bugs Bunny.

When I first entertained the idea of going to a furry convention, I had no idea what to expect; like most I thought it was strange and I had heard rumors about it being a bad place to be. But unlike most people, everything bad about it just made me want to understand it, I wanted to know what it was really like to go to one of these things instead of just accepting what people outside the fandom said.

When I first got there, I was nervous; I got out of the car without much coaxing but when we got inside, my sister told me to ask where the registration for the convention was and I clammed up. I didn’t want to talk to anyone, I was in a strange place at nine in the morning with lots of strange people, would you want to talk to anyone? First off I don’t know these people and second, it’s nine in the morning, I am sure someone is going to be cranky and knowing my luck, I will be the one to find this person.

Thanks to my diddling and dawdling, it took us half an hour to find the registration desk; we were about to be kicked out because we were loitering and hadn’t paid when we found someone we knew. A mutt by the name of Tesxa, who saved us from some rather embarrassing conversations with the security people who were looming down at us and looking rather threatening.

It was about ten when we got our badges stating that we’d paid and were 18 or older; we looked at the program of stuff that was going on that they gave us with our badges and found to our dismay that there was little to do. We went to the game room which was the only thing open at the time.

When we got there- I swear it was the stereotypical scenario where the girls walk into the game room and all the never-been-near-a-real-girl-in-their-lives-nerds turn and look at them before slowly getting up from their chairs as the girls back out of the room. We made a break for the elevator, deciding not to go back up there until later on when the battle of the bands on Rockband started in hopes that there would be more people up there.

So until about eleven thirty we sat in the main hallway, watching people walk and wake up; and talking to each other. We would have sat there all day if it hadn’t been for Winnie The Pooh-or rather a child suitor dressed up as him.

I was very very very bored and sitting under a plant playing with the batteries to my camera when all of a sudden a woman and this little Pooh Bear walk by. The little bear is holding a sign that reads “free hugs” so immediately I get up and say “I want a hug~” He runs to me and hugs me. Sadly he left before I could get a picture of him; but because of him my sister and I went on a 4 hour quest to get a picture of and a hug from every fur suitor that was there that day. I’m pretty sure that I got most of them.

The day went by very quickly, especially after I met up with a couple friends, we hung out, hit up the dealer’s room and I commissioned some badges before we went up to the game room and my sister and I watched the Rock Band tournament for a while before my dad came to pick us up.

So what did I learn through this experience? Other than not to go to conventions so early and that most people will hug total strangers if they ask nice and have cameras? I learned that you shouldn’t judge something that you don’t understand, until you experience it, you can’t really make an informed opinion. True you might have what other people tell you, but how many of those people are just parroting what they have heard? Take a look from the other side of the window before judging what you see from the outside.

YES! Only one more week until Furry Connection North, for the most part I am almost positive that I am going for at least one day if not for all three days; sadly though my sister is bailing on me for most of two of the days.

I am both very very excited and very very nervous because this is my first furry convention and I am not sure what to expect. It was the same way with my first anime convention, but I had more people to go with there and less people to just meet there.

My friend Tesxa offered to shack me up with her studio if she had the room, but I know that she doesn't have the room and I would hate to impose. I have a convention badge to pay her for, so probably the first thing that I plan to do when I get there would be to check the artists alley to find her. I might dislike wandering around by myself, but I think that I would dislike going with my sister even more at this point because we're both very shy and we both get hostile when it comes to things like this.

*ventage*

Woot for anime conventions!!!

Yay, okay down to business,

I went to Youmacon this year, it was all this weekend (sadly I could only go for Saturday during the day) and I have to say that it was a freaking blast!!! It was so much fun, I think I died and went to anime heaven! There were thousands of people there, so many different costumes, people and merchandise that it was almost overwhelming ^^;;

I got so many hugs~<3 That is the one thing about anime Otaku that you really notice right away, we're not afraid to hug strangers! We will walk up to you and hug you and not think twice about it! There were even people with "Free hugs and kisses" signs ^-^ I remember this one guy particularly, he was dressed as Rock Lee (who we all know is a favorite of mine) and I walked up to him and asked for a hug and his reply was "of course you don't even have to ask". Talk about sweet! XD Another person that I hugged was Joey (though I think it scared him XDD)

http://www.youtube.com/user/Joeyblondewolf2

I wish that I had more pictures of the event but sadly my camera batteries died about an hour after we got there (we were there for 5 or 6 hours)so I didn't get pictures or videos of nearly any of the stuff I really wanted to share with people that read these/watch my youtube/watch my gaia/watch my subeta.

I went to an Inuyasha photoshoot, and I was amazed at some of their costumes, there was one person dressed as Sesshomaru that I really wanted to give a hug but I just couldn't muster going and hugging them XD They did such a wonderful job!

After the Inuyasha photoshoot, we went to the game room and played a little DDR, it was really fun, me and this one girl that I am trying to find (HI KWIRKI) played a full set together (we were pretty evenly matched and it was so fun) and talked a little while in line. She was really nice ^^

After that I met back up with my group and we went to the Sailor Moon thing in Panel 6. It was really funny, even if Chris (sailor man) was late.

When that ended we were going to go to the Inuyasha panel in panel 2 but by that time (we had been there for about 3 hours) and my wig was giving men a headache. So I took my wig out to the car and when I came back in, my group members had been moved so I couldn't find them and ended up sitting by the entrance of the panel room hallway waiting for them. They yelled at me after that for not going back in XD I guess they don't know that everyone looks the same from behind.

Well we took a break from the panels after that and went to the merchandise section of the hotel. My dad was amazed, he had never seen so many anime dorks in one place before, let alone so much merchandise (I don't think he realized how wide a spectrum the anime world really is). Needless to say that in the first five minutes of being in the merchandise room all of my money was gone. My dad easily went through-like- $200 in 20 minutes (mainly because he made the mistake of offering to buy me a trophy sword-a real sword-for my bedroom wall, which that cost $53 right there).

Though I am pretty sure my dad didn't enjoy watching his bank account endlessly shrink yesterday, I know that he enjoyed it because he kept asking if we were having fun and smiling. It was a total blast and yes I will be going next year (and to anicon in ohio this year) so look for me ^^ Or better yet GO WITH ME!!!

A lot of people roleplay nowadays and most of us really enjoy the experience for both the story and the friendship you build up. I myself have a couple partners that I really love and one of them came to me today and told me that they aren't sure that they are comfortable about still doing the roleplay that we are involved in even though they are really enjoying it. The reason is that this story is a same sex couple (yes I know that narrows it down with me XDD)and this person doesn't want people that they know finding out that it is them that I am writing with. (Specifically why I am mentioning no names)

I know that if we end this roleplay I will absolutely be heart broken because I have fallen in love with the story line. It's a slave between a master and a disobedient slave who are slowly falling in love with one another literally everyone that I let read it loves it at the first glance that they get of it. But if my partner decides that they don't want to continue I will have to finish it without their help and it wont end as well as I think it would if this person still roleplayed with me at least until the very end of the story.

I was going to have the slave betray the master and break his heart, but if my partner quits I might have to change that to a happy ending if only because my mind will fade on what the character is really like. (I don't want to read the damn thing for a third time, it takes too long, seriously this story is a freaking book)

Anyway..I will post if I am accepting new roleplaying partners later on...

Until then,

Angel

Konnichiwa and salutations,

It's me again, yes yes I know it has been far too long since my last post but honestly I never remember that I have this account XD That's so bad isn't it?

Anyway, this entry is conveniently titled because as I might have mentioned (I don't remember if I did or not) I am in a videogame development class, and we are now working on a new game. The point of the game is we're supposed to be fighting something. It can be anything, it just has to be interesting (they didn't even give us an age group this time). My game (lets pray I finish it on time I will probably be spending a lot of time after school and before school working on it XD)is dedicated to my little sister and is centered around the Meiji Revolution.

The game is going to have 6 levels (that is if I get my way, I might cut it down to five)and every level is timed. You are supposed to perform a certain mission in every level within the allotted amount of time and if you fail you get a game over. As you move up in levels, you move down in Unit numbers, starting in the Tenth Unit and ending as the Vice Commander's right hand man. Also as you move up in levels, your time becomes less and less so each level will be increasingly difficult, but not obscenely so.

...Well that's my plan, let's just hope that I get it finished in time...lord knows I will be happily working on it with all my free time.

Wow you know what? I found out two things this weekend...firstly drawing Harley Quinn is a little more difficult to draw than she looks...and second? Toning evenly in ink pen is nearly impossible. I've had artists block lately so I've been incessantly doodling every free moment I get to try and get myself out of my slump. Needless to say much paper got recycled this weekend as you all know how I am about keeping my crappy pictures.

Well only a few moments ago I was doodling a Joker, like the one off the card? And I decided to tone it, but sadly all I have is an ink pen since I left my pencil case at my mothers (*sniff* and just after I finally got my recording equipment back too, damn equivalent exchange!) Anyway I toned it with that and it took me nearly 20 minutes to do only the head which consists of half of the clown's face being black and alternating bits of the hat. Ugh it was- really liberating I mean I-

[Joker(the Batman character] GET ON WITH IT HARLEY!!
[Me] Y-Yes sir!

Well anyway, as you can see I have been Rping as Harley Quinn lately, I am FASCINATED with her and Joker's relationship because-

[Joker] HARLEY DON'T TALK LIKE I'M NOT HERE
[Me] Yes Mistah J...*wow what a snip*
[Joker] I AM NOT A SNIP!
[Me] WTF How do you know I called you that?! That was supposed to be in my thoughts!!
[Joker] I just know!
[Harley] *runs away*

Recently I have been surfing youtube more and more and just today I found a video on nudity. Now it's not scandalous nudity, it's about nudity in art and society. It makes several good points about society's view on nudity and it starts you thinking.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6rPjzJUG1l0

Why does Society view nudity as pornographic? If you think about it, you can have sex with your clothes on, so why is it only nude pictures that are viewed as pornographic? Nudity in art is not about lewd thoughts or behavior like people seem to think it is. Every time a picture of a nude human being is entered in a public medium, it is because it is trying to illustrate and get a point across.

We all have our bodies in common, granted they are not always the same size or shape, color or shade, but they are all something that roots us to another human being. We all have the same features in common; we all have shoulders, and shoulder blades, legs and hips. We all have eyes, ribs, muscles and skin. It is beautiful how they work together, so why shouldn't we express that in art?

Hundreds and thousands of years ago, people made statues, paintings and many other artistic works that featured nude people in them. Why can we call these art but anything that is produced today is "pornographic"? It makes no sense! People back then had sex too, OBVIOUSLY, so why is it different today? Are you going to tell me that they didn't know it was pornographic? The word "pornographic" is a word that surfaced in the dictionary recently only a little while before 1915.

http://www.websters-online-dictionary.org/definition/pornographic

So please tell me why? Why is it that people hate nudity so very much? Perhaps the truth lies in the eyes of those who call art and nude modeling "pornographic". Perhaps they themselves are ashamed of what their body looks like and therefore believe that humanity should hide it. Or maybe it is not in their shame of their body but for the person that they are inside; maybe they feel that they need to cover up what they really are. Maybe they feel vulnerable and fragile when they are naked, maybe they dislike that feeling and try to deny it by denying what they are underneath.

But whatever it is, there has to be a line drawn between pornographic images and artistic nudity.

Wow it has been so long since I last posted, my birthday actually passed while I was away; damn I'm getting old! Lol anyway, my friends are all graduating and leaving me here alone...well really only about 2/3 of my friends are leaving me. It's still sad though. My friends Josh will probably be the one that I miss the most; I wuv him so much XD yeah I'm childish. But I really am going to miss him the most. Shelly, knows where I live, Angela has my number and my email and Becca- well I love being around her but we're not close.

Well the pig dissections have finally begun, marking the Seniors last two weeks of school and damn am I going to hate it when these two weeks are gone. Seriously I'm going to cry! I wish that I could just- freeze time and hang out with them more. Shelly was talking today about her senior will and she said how she wished that she had known me better when she had written it because she would have left me something. I told her not to worry about it since she was going to keep in touch with me, Josh too.

I hate saying goodbye, it sounds really stupid but I feel like I'm being forgotten when I say goodbye. It feels like they're going to leave and get on with their lives and I'm not even going to be left as a memory. But I suppose that, that is how life goes, right? It is all just a chain of events that we assume are somehow linked with one another. We pretend to be the main character in our own story, yet in the bigger picture we are only one dot in a pointillism painting.

Wow that sounds really poetic, lol. I really didn't try for that one XD

Anyway, I am really going to try and just enjoy what little time I have left with them, I may lost touch with them, but I will always have my memories of them right? God that sounds more hopeful than I really am DX Oh well,

Wish me luck,

Angel

Yeah I don't get to write very much...hopefully that will change pretty soon. The real subject of this entry is Myspace. Everyone that I know has one and whenever they ask me if I have one I always answer 'sorry I don't go on Myspace'. Well it's finally happened, I finally broke down and got a myspace!

www.myspace.com/trappedwithyou

But now I kindof feel like I've joined the teeming masses of Myspace Users-[teddy: you make it sound like a drug >.>;;]
[me: lol yeah I do...^.^;;]
[My sister Taka-chan: isn't it?]
[me, teddy and taka's cat piro] *nodd*
It's like- I'm conforming in some way (something that I really hate to do and do as little as I can) But then again I feel kindof bad for those who are actually addicted to Myspace; you see, I don't absolutely HAVE to go on, I can live forever without it. There are those people out there (most of which I know) that CAN'T live without it, they MUST go on almost every day.

Yeah that has nothing to do with anything...I'm just really bored! Nothing much really happened other than the enamoring fact that time passed since I last posted. Michigan had a partial gov't shut down for 4 hours!!! Yeah it's not as dramatic as I would have liked it to be...I was really hoping that they would shut down for the rest of the year. Then maybe I would have something to tell my grandchildren when I'm older than the meteorites on the moon... But no! All I got was WWIII!!! oh well...talk to meh...

Angel

nothing really new today, it's the start of finals so I'm really buisy and I'm evil. I have two birthday celebrations to go to this weekend and I ran out of wrapping paper...but you know I don't give up. I wrapped the gifts in DUCT TAPE! Actually it's a little tradition that one of my friends started a little while ago and that is actually what she said. We do it every year to the unsuspecting and it's so fun, both for those we do it to and for those who watch. well I'm out have a great weekend

Angel

I think I actually have one, the magical thing that most humans call a crush! I don't know if it's real or not, I'm sortof undecided just yet. But still...
The marking period is coming to an end and I really don't want to leave my current classes because I won't get to see him anymore. I know it's something that is going to pass but somehow I don't want it to...

I'm in the lettering stage of my comic now and the pressure is on, I've never done something like this with so much time to waste, and I'm learning to use another program other than the one I usually use because my computer at my mom's house doesn't have the program I use...I can't do shading on my mom's computer because again with the program... so yeah...I'm not really that used to this...most of my comics were published first on my dad's com then from school, my mom's computer is unfamiliar to me...